[ there's something ironic, she thinks, about being on the receiving end of that kind of advice now. kotone... isn't really sure what to say to it. she certainly can't bear to talk more about aigis.
so she, perhaps kind of glaringly, skips to the last part. ]
she didn't do anything wrong it took a while for us to get close but she was always there for me in her own way yknow
my team never knew any of the velvet room or contract stuff i tried to explain some of it to her earlier but i don't think i made any sense
without you, she might keep thinking that she's in the wrong. try not to avoid talking to her. and figure out what your own feelings are first. it sounds like the last thing you two need right now is a misunderstanding.
[ While that's not exactly the point of their conversation, Kotone is clearly beating herself up way too much. ]
that place doesn't make sense unless you see it for yourself, i think. i'm not sure i would understand anything if they tried explaining it to me.
[ They never asked for it and yet, they both had to go through their own share of hardships. It's heartbreaking for Akira to read that, especially since there's no easy and quick solution. ]
someone should have warned us that putting up an act might end terribly for us. you don't have to be happy and know who you are or what's going on all the time, kotone. don't be so harsh on yourself...even if i shouldn't be the one saying that, probably.
[ it comes almost reflexively, and she regrets it as soon as she sends it. kotone curls up further in her sleeping bag, clenching her eyes shut for a second. she's starting to fall apart a little. ]
sorry that wasnt fair i just i don't know what to do? i have a second chance here but ive already had to die once to save the world akira and idon't want to again i dont have anything to go back to, this is it
[ she's assuming the worst about the eventual outcome here, even with a success in mind. ]
[ Well, honestly, it's not like she's wrong. It did end better for him than for her, and even if it might sound cruel to point it out, that's an undeniable fact. ]
i can't even imagine how it must feel like. the question is...do you want to stay here? even after everything is over? i don't want to give you false hope, but maybe it's a possibility...
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so she, perhaps kind of glaringly, skips to the last part. ]
she didn't do anything wrong
it took a while for us to get close but
she was always there for me in her own way yknow
my team never knew any of the velvet room or contract stuff
i tried to explain some of it to her earlier but i don't think i made any sense
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try not to avoid talking to her.
and figure out what your own feelings are first.
it sounds like the last thing you two need right now is a misunderstanding.
[ While that's not exactly the point of their conversation, Kotone is clearly beating herself up way too much. ]
that place doesn't make sense unless you see it for yourself, i think.
i'm not sure i would understand anything if they tried explaining it to me.
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i think doing what we do really messed me up akira
i don't really know who i am
and i think that's how the velvet room wanted it
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someone should have warned us that putting up an act might end terribly for us.
you don't have to be happy and know who you are or what's going on all the time, kotone.
don't be so harsh on yourself...even if i shouldn't be the one saying that, probably.
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[ it comes almost reflexively, and she regrets it as soon as she sends it. kotone curls up further in her sleeping bag, clenching her eyes shut for a second. she's starting to fall apart a little. ]
sorry that wasnt fair
i just
i don't know what to do?
i have a second chance here but
ive already had to die once to save the world akira and idon't want to again
i dont have anything to go back to, this is it
[ she's assuming the worst about the eventual outcome here, even with a success in mind. ]
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i can't even imagine how it must feel like.
the question is...do you want to stay here? even after everything is over?
i don't want to give you false hope, but maybe it's a possibility...